Journey to the Depths of My Heart: March 2009

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

ANDRENALINE RUSHING.

1) I'm scared, scared SCARED SCARED SCARED!!! But the pressure now isn't as bad as last year's. Hehe, so I guess it's a good thing. Ah, I'm so freaking nervous. Went to school today to do a few more practice jumps before going to CCAB to try the tramp out. My first routine on the competition tramp was screwed. I was like 1/3 my height, I couldn't jump up at all. That tramp is so hard and unflexible. Then Siang Lin told me some good advice, which I took, and then I was nearly my usual height again. I had to sink in more, and not rush through with jumping. That way, I can use my weight to propel myself upswards. Okay, I'm so worried that tomorrow, I'll be so nervous that I wouldn't be able to do a good routine. That I'll screw up somehow. That I'll start rushing and flying everywhere. I really really hope I won't regret or be disappointed. And I hope that my team members will be proud of me as I will be of them.
2) After the tryouts, we stayed awhile to watch some of the other schools, then went back to hc to eat lunch. The rest then proceeded to training while Amanda, Siang Lin and I went to J8 to buy presents for everyone. HAHA. We were so stingy with money. Well not me actually, it was Amanda. But since we were sharing costs, I had to go along with her ways. So in the end, after walking for an hour, we spent $2.25 on 10 rulers. HAHA. Then we went back home to wrap our presents. haha. It was so freaking funny. What we did, I mean. First, we searched the ground for rocks. Then bleached them to make them white. Then we gathered one dollar coins. And searched Youtube for a method to make them shiny. Found something about salt and vinegar. Which was what we did. Haha, stank the whole place, really and left them in the cup for half an hour. Hehe, then we thought the method really did work, but then it was only our minds fooling us. haha. So what we did for presents? HAHA. Mostly Man's idea, although I came up with the Ang Bao part. So, we wrote them letters, then inserted one letter each into an Ang Bao. Then, plonked a piece of rock inside bearing the words "You Rock." Then a personalized ruler with scribbles of their names and "You Rule" and "HCI TRAMP" as well as some deco tape pasted onto one end. The last bit was exceptionally brainy. HAHA. We put a one dollar coin inside, for whatever use the recipient would want to put it to. Anyway, the letters said something like You rock, you rule, and you shine! HAHAHAHAHA. SUPER FUNNY. HAD SO MUCH FUN MAKING THEM. AND MAN WAS MAKING US ALL LAUGH SO MUCH. By the time we were done, it was like six thirty. And they had to rush off - leaving me a messy room to clean up. haha. I didn't mind, really.
3) I slept on the FLOOR last night!!! Haha, it was soooo fun!!! And the funny thing is, I'm not having a backache at all today. I'm perfectly fine! haha. Okay, you'll be asking why I slept on the floor right? haha. Cuz my mom's friend came back from Hong Kong. She slept on my bed. Then my cousin had to stay for the night. So the mattress went to him. AND THEN our sleeping bag was already lent to another cousin, who has not returned it for months. I wanted to sleep on my parent's bed, but had already done so before and did not wish to share the overcrowded conditions again. haha, and my dad's snore is reallly really loud. Kept me awake half the night... So what I did was laid a coverlet on the floor. Folded it into two. And that was my bed. Haha, then used the excess as a blanket. Then I had my pillow and bolster which was enough for me. haha, a little discomfort experienced at first. But everything was fine. What an experience! haha, and I'm gonna do it again tonight. Man, I've got competition tomorrow too...
4) Okay, got a ton of things to do before heading off to bed. Stitch the tag onto my leotard. I got number four. In chinese, that's bad. In english, that's an even number. And I like even numbers. haha. Then iron my uniform. Then study lipids. Then construct my makeshift bed. haha. Okay.
5) Wow, nearly forgot my nervousness. Ahhhhh I'm soooooo scared!!! haha. okok, hope I do well tomorrow!!! In fact, even if it's not good, but I don't screw up, I'm gonna be so relieved and happy. haha. Okay, everyone, I'm getting my big fat butt off the chair. So ciao people!!!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

The 3 D's : Determination, Diligence, and the last one I've forgotten. haha.

1) I've been in a lousy mood for the last few weeks. Especially crappy today.
2) Stress maybe? Was like that last year too, in the months leading up to 'O' Levels.
3) Haha, I find that I really like ice cream.
4) It's on Wednesday. I'm not nervous. Maybe cuz I've given up all hope.
4) I wanna be Banana King!
5) Had CIP today. Kinda fun. 'Cept money's gone.
6) Hey, I've got a sunburn!!! From swimming in the hot sun for over an hour for PE. It's kinda painful.
7) Ahhhh, left my specs with FISH!!
8) I'm soooo broke, I'm even in debt.
9) I think, I'm gonna take a nap. Really sleepy, even though I slept 10 hours last night. I think my body's trying to make up for the lack of sleep over the last week.
10) Kookabara sits on the old gum tree.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Revolution

1) Jevon says I'm unlike girls. That I love video and computer games like guys. I think that maybe it's got something to do with being brought up alongside two brothers. haha.
2) Darn, why did I have to go lose my wallet...? Realize how essential the things inside it were. Like the housekey, Ez-link card, back gate key and money. haha.
3) I've got this voucher with Rachel from Prom Night. We STILL haven't used it yet. haha.
4) Competition's in barely more than a week. I heard our leotards are disgusting. And Wang Jiao Lian made me the first of the first. Darn it. I hate being first. So scary. And I'm so nervous. Okay, here's the good thing about not being the best anymore. There isn't as much pressure on you. So yeah, I'm less nervous than last year. But still nervous enough to have sweaty palms, my andrenaline pumping through my veins, and butterflies in my stomach when I think about it. I really hope people outside the gym don't come to watch. It'll be too embarassing and pressuring. I'm especially dreading the part about baring my thighs...
5) Oh yeah, last friday was the best time of my life! We went out. That is, me, Deddy, Olivia, Kah Hoe, Kong Ying, Yi Wen, Fifi, and Yu Qi. Haha, we went to Plaza Singapura. Then, I was made to watch Coming Soon. Which was this super duper thriple scary Thai horror movie. I think I only watched about 0.00001% of the movie. The whole time, I was hiding my face. haha. Anyway, it was kind of fun to watch even guys screaming and covering their ears and eyes. Didn't know they can get scared like this too! And then Fifi and I were grasping our hands together so hard that they hurt afterwards. And I heard there was this one scary part in which Deddy jumped to Kong Ying in fright. HAHAHAA.
6) Oh no, my knees are wearing off again. It's been aching off and on. While jumping, even now. Pooey... That's the price of making gym my life huh...
7) I wanna read Brisingr. Sigh, Fun Juin said she'd lend it to me after she reads it. But I haven't heard from her yet...
8) Oh yeah, and I want my Eragon and Eldest books back!!!
9) Before this March holidays, I vowed to study whatever we've covered so far. HAHA. Due to my procrastinating habits, I haven't done anything yet. I've only done maths and GP homework. Still got chemistry, econs and bio homework to finish...
10) Kind of crazy. Me and Trish, I mean. We went to photocopy all our lecture notes. So that we could exchange them and read more. haha.
11) Hmm. I still can't make up my mind whether I like HC or not. One thing's for sure though, that I still love and miss SC. :) I think JC's very troublesome. You have so many things to think about. I prefer the simple, sheltered life of SC. A bit boring sometimes, but I feel really safe and secure in the environment.
12) Haha, a couple of weeks ago, I was acting childish in front of Fifi. So she asked my age in jest. haha. It took me like 5 seconds to answer her! HAHA. Cuz I'd forgotten my age. I dunno why! Maybe cuz I hardly think of my age? Okay, I'm 16 now and am gonna be 17 this year! haha, just to remind myself!
13) I realize how much I LOVE sleeping. Makes me feel really refreshed and smart after one long night of good, undisturbed sleep.
14) My piano practical and theory skills are deteriorating like mad. I can tell I can't read notes as fast now. And my playing is really clumsy, messy and mellow. No feelings. Sigh. I don't think I'll ever finish grade 8... :(
15) And I havevn't drawn anime in months! HA, more like YEARS! I know that if I were to pick up a pen, I wouldn't be able to draw as well as last time.
16) Okay, that's the end of this blog. I ended on the sixteenth point, haha cuz I wanted to remind myself again that I'm sixteen!!! Alright, see you all earthlings!!!

Thursday, March 19, 2009

I've been making a lot of mistakes.

And today was especially horrible.

Went out with Peggy to Ang Mo Kio hub.

The problems started there.

The free movie tickets turned out to be only for Eng Wah cinemas. Good thing I'd brought enough money.
Then the movie we watched was total crap. Unworthy of the $9.90 we paid.
Went broke after buying a present to make up for the grave mistake I made yesterday. I was feeling really guilty about it, but there wasn't any other present I thought suitable.
After that, as if my life wasn't already dreadful enough, I had to go lose my wallet.
Let's talk about the good side. I was already broke, so there was less than $3 cash in there.
Now, the bad side... it held my Ez-link card consisting of over $8, my IC, my housekey, my school badge, my 4 photocopy cards that's probably worth less than 5 bucks, This Fashion discount card(not that I really care but it was given to me by a family friend so the guilt is there), FunKey(ok worthless), and then my Ah Ma's lucky charm(I'm sort of superstitious so this is quite bad).

Okay, I'm sure your burning question is how did I lose it???
My answer? I DON'T KNOW.
Let me explain. I'm sure it was there when I bought the present. If not, how could I even buy it? So it's definitely not lying around in the movie theatre as I bought the present after I watched the movie. After that, my niece and I were walking around the shops. Then we went home. I was just about to board my bus, when I realized my wallet wasn't in my bag. So I went back to search for one whole hour. Told Peggy to go off first, of course. Searched all the places I've been and not been. Even went to the information counter to record down my name and contact number.
I was scared. HA. No I wasn't scared about what would happen to the contents of my wallet and how they would be wrongfully utilised. Okay, maybe I was a tiny bit scared about that. But no, what I was so afraid of, was my mom. Oh! When I told her, she was sooooo pissed off. Oh no, she didn't shout. But you could hear and see the barely-controlled fury in her voice and expression. To me, she has the amazing ability to make you feel so guilty, too guilty in my opinion, about doing something stupid like losing your wallet. I felt like scum when she called me in response to my sms.
And now I don't think I can go to training tomorrow. Cuz I'm gonna ground myself in repetence for my ill deed. Even if I didn't do anything. No, I don't believe I dropped it. My wallet's real chunky, it would have made a lot of noise if I did drop it. And I'm not the type of person to leave it lying around. It's either in my hand or my bag. That's it. I don't know how I lost it.
So now, I've got to fix this mess I've landed myself in. Report loss of IC and Ez-link and apply for new ones. Money, time, and energy required. Lots of them. Including my mom's. Probably explains her foul mood now.

Oh man, what bad luck I'm having today. :(:(:( Just wanna go to bed, and forget all this. But I'm almost grown up now... Gotta fix this mess first... myself.