"Why," you ask.
"I'll show you why," I say.
1) My butt hurts. Slow, do you know how difficult it is to sit? I say, I'm too thin for my own good. Haha.
2) During recess, I ate more than Georgina and Slow. I felt like such a glutton.
3) Alyssa boasted during gym that she didn't eat dinner last night. Meatball said the same thing too. We're all attempting to cut down on our weight for the height and weight measurements for the next PE lesson. Mine's tomorrow. Sadly, I couldn't boast what they said as well.
4) With the new teacher, all we do is redundant exercises that supposedly improve our crappy jumping. We havn't even done our routine for a long time. LIKE HELLO??? I DON'T THINK I CAN DO A BACKSOMER ANYMORE. YOU'RE NOT EVEN LETTING US TRAIN. JUST MAKING US SUFFER UNDER RELENTLESS TORTURE.
5) I couldn't sleep well last night. My bro was playing his computer games so loudly, and his light was on. I couldn't sleep. Even that new teacher asked why I was especially spaced out today.
6) She scolded me badly for not doing the straddle jumps properly. She said I was arching too much and for that, shouted a lot. Damnit. I was trying my best for her and she rewarded me by yelling. There's one thing I especially hate and that's being scolded by a teacher for injust reasons.
7) We found out that that China lao shi was Mr Lim's girlfriend... Mr Lim's gone. Everybody was comforting me... YEAH RIGHT. I ain't after Mr Lim. I just said he was very fatherly. What I'm trying to say here is, Mr Lim didn't even come for training today. Usually when I'm having a bad day at gym, his arrival always brightens me up.
8) I met two perverts today. One in the name of meatball and another was incidently, my teacher. Oh yeah, and one more. Wei Yee. Y'all know what you did. haha. Everybody was laughing.
9) I was reminded vividly of the day Vivian broke her leg. Aly was complaining her knees hurt. So that teacher made her sit on the crash mat and put her legs across to another crash mat so that part of the legs were over an open space. Then she commanded meatball to go sit on her knees. And you know how meatball has the most outstanding body mass. Anyway, everytime I rest my leg on a stool, my knees always hurt after awhile. Imagine having a considerable human weight on your knees, pressing it backwards, as if it would break your knees anytime. That was what it was like for Aly. Lao shi made her stay that way for 10 mins. She was screaming and laughing and crying in pain. Just like how Vivian was. And everytime meatball shifted her weight to make it lighter, she screamed even more. I volunteered to share the pain with her but lao shi won't even let me. Stupid. I'm so angry at what was done to Aly. But I don't blame meatball. And I like lao shi well enough. So I really don't know what to do with my anger.
10) Two people cried in gym today. Both because of the harsh training and teachers.
11) I lent 10 dollars to a friend yesterday. Met her today and she said she couldn't return it to me cuz other friends owe her money too. I only had 45 cents. So I had to borrow 1.20 from another friend to eat lunch. When we were leaving gym, I asked around for ten dollars cuz I remembered my ezlink card was running out of cash. Aly said she had. Then after that, I stupidly forgot to ask it from her. By the time I remembered, I was sitting alone at the bus stop. 45 cents was not enough for a bus ride. I had to use my EZlink card. By the time I got off, I only had 15 cents left. I was freaking out. I had no money, and I had as good as no Ezlink card. And I was still at Newton MRT. I couldn't call my bros, they would rather I walk all the way to Yio Chu Kang myself. I couldn't call my dad, he was working. I couldn't call mom, she would display a black face for days afterwards. I couldn't call my friends, I didn't want to trouble them. I comptemplated Slow, but then I really didn't want her to go all the way out of her house just to give me money. So, all I could do was hope and pray that 15 cents was enough to allow me into the MRT. It was. I was so relieved. When I got out, my card value was a minus 25 cents. After all that, I wasn't still at my home yet. Just as I walked past, I looked forlornly at the bus 825 which had just arrived. I couldn't ride it. 45 cents wasn't enough. Walking back took forever. I was so tired from gym, the long day, and the sleepless night before. Oh and the bag I was carrying. It wasn't that heavy but having a bag sling across one shoulder really hurts. My feet hurt, my butt hurts. By the time I reached the gatehouse, it was half an hour later. At 7.30. I tried to comfort myself. Saying that all this walking would cut down on my weight for the weight test tomorrow. But give me a break. I'd gained all that I'd lost back for dinner. Mom wasn't even home. So my bros and I ordered macs.
At that point, I really felt like breaking down. If you look back, you'd think but those are all small things that don't even get noticed. But no, it's that all those bad small things that happened add up to one lousy crappy day. One, I'm fatter. Two, I'm depressed. Three, everyone else is too. And isn't it funny slow? When we're mad, we feel like crying. Why is that? Oh but then you told me, it's cuz we're frustrated. Haha. It's so funny. Everytime we're together, we seem to talk a lot about serious stuffs like people's true characters. We're really deep. haha. even georgina said so.
And this night, I really miss eui jung more than ever. Write to me ok??? you still owe me one letter.