1) I'm in love. Yes. haha. I'm seriously, hopelessly in love... Caught my gaze over the top of the computer. Asleep in deep, blissful, contentment. Oh... the cuteness! I'm accidentally in love... with a kitten! haha. It's so darn cute. My bro's girlfriend must have given it to him. It's this tiny kitten about 5cm long deep asleep on a pillow. Omg. I just squealed when I saw it. And it's so furry and cuddly. I just wish there was such a real kitten that small. It would be insufferably cute.
2) About gym: I'm in depression. Don't even wanna talk about it.
3) Omg aly. Yes I know you love me. And I'd best assume that I was the only one you sent the christmas card to. Yes yes. I know you love me. haha.
4) Been watching like FIVE dramas and anime at once. haha. I'm crazy. There's naruto, bleach, mei wei guan xi, save the last dance for me, and nadame cantabile. All super duper great shows. Check all of those out, kids. Okay. whoops. Kids wouldn't like these. Okay how about teenage girls? haha.
5) Another great embarrassement of my life yesterday. You know, I probably should keep a list of all the great embarrasements that ever happened to me. So that I can look back in the future and laugh at them. But I guess embarrasements are meant to be forgotten. haha. Anyway here's what it's about:
The awesome, great, majestic tofu lady... had.... STAGE FRIGHT. (trumpets bleat dramatically)
The crowd howled and jeered. Tomatoes, popcorn and even fingernails were thrown onto the stage directly into Jie Qi's path. "Loser!" yelled one. "You don't deserve to exist!" yelled another.
Poor tofu lady stands there covered in slime and sweat. Even her normally wobbly self seems to wobble so much more. There she stands till the sun came out and heated her to a brown crisp.
6) Alrite. Enough with the crap. What happened was that yesterday was the usual annual piano party. We were supposed to prepare a piece right? I finally chose Scarlet (from ayashi no ceres) after nerve-wrecking days. I was feeling okay I supposed. Did I ever mention that I hate making new friends? yeah. I'm not sociable at all. Anyway, when it came my turn to perform, my heart started beating faster for no reason at all. I didn't understand at first. I mean, what's there to be afraid of? I mean, most of them were kids barely out of kindergarten. Well I just charged ahead with it. But then I became so stiff. My fingers were icy cold. It didn't help that I'd worn a sleeveless shirt. I was really trembling. Then I couldn't play well. Hit on the wrong notes. There was no expression at all. I couldn't believe it- and still can't. I've never had stage fright before. Must have hit my head on the pavement sometime recently. Sigh... All my FOUR YEARS of work have gone down the drain. YES. I've worked on that piece for FOUR FREAKING YEARS. And it just diminished to nothing right on that spot. Ugh. Do you know how disgusted I am with myself? Ugh. Don't. Wanna. Talk. About. It.
7) Then I had a wedding dinner. Had to dress up. Wear high heels again. Oh, then I painted my nails! heehee. So fun. Painted it black. Then silver. Makes a really nice color!
8) And I've realized how much dad means to me. It's like, whenever he's around, I feel so secure and as if even if the world cracked down around me, I'll still be safe.
9) Sigh. I'm gonna do a bit of homework today... pooey.
10) Happy holidays people. For the rest of it, that is. haha.