actually...

i didn't read all the shou ces. haha. i only read 3B. then i gave up.

oh. i was so darn bored just now that i actually played chess with mom. and guess what... I WON MY FIRST CHESS GAME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!! YAYAYAYAYA!!! you see, after my first few attempts at playing chess with my older bro when i was small, i hated chess. cuz i never ever won at that game. i never played it. so every now and then when i would play chess with pple (which is like once or twice a year) i would always lose as i'd never practice at it before. but then today, i WON! haha. but of course mom was havin a headache and she found the tv a better form of entertainment but still...

hmm. i believe im getting girlier. i was just choosing which earrings to wear just now. cuz im going to malaysia. mom, dad, me and the same aunt and uncle as yesterday. my brothers of course are not going as they have "better things to do." anyway, i just LOVE dangling earrings. i think they rock. i love i love i love dangling earrings. oooh and i like those like silver-ring-studs athingy. oopsy. getting girlier aren't i...

ok i just got back from malaysia. its bout 12.30 right now. hmm. we did shopping, eating and talking. i suppose its ok. i got a new shirt yipee! and to our surprise, we found that green really suits me. cuz initially we always thought that only red suits. anyway, i had crab and ice-cream and fish (yuck) and veggies (doubleyuck) and meat. my legs are killing me.

oh. on the way back, i was with my cousin who's as crazy as me except she's about 18 years older than me. anyway, she had this game with all of us. that is, me, mom, aunt, uncle and dad. so we had to think up a category like animal and then name all that we think of. if we failed to do so in five seconds, we would be tickled. so of course, i was always the one who got tickled. and we were all screaming and yelling. yep even the adults. anyway, my voice is like practically hoarse right now. i think i screamed too much. you see, i never scream. so, im not used to screaming. ah ha. so now im like coughing and it's really difficult to talk. hope it won't get worse tomorrow cuz i'll be going to gym. hmm. let's see if i can remember to bring slow's stuff. but she's probably too lazy to come tomorrow anyway.

good night all.

now im a nerd

i can't believe it. im actually reading my friend's pr.3 shou ce. and im planning to read all pr3, pr4 and pr5 shou ce today. wow...

now ure asking, why the heck am i reading them? i mean they make you fall asleep. well, believe it or not, im attempting to improve my chinese. oh and if you don't know, i have never read those shou ce before. hee... not my fault!

creepy

just watched the protege with mom, bro, aunt and uncle. dunno why, but i find that show creepy. bet it's gonna give me nightmares tonight...

oh haha. finally got the photos from marissa! thanks a lot marissa!

That's Dr. Araki, Vivian, Ita, Marissa, me, and Olivia. ha ha. all these were from yesterday's Sport's Psychology workshop. oh behind is our poster!

Vivian, me and olivia. ha ha! we look funky!

Vivian and me. if you don't know, the words "Goddess or Man?" were written by me of course. i know i know, they're like the best penmanship you have ever seen! haha. oh and the rest of the words were written by olivia. i know! omg. they're like so straight!!! then olivia told me that in indonesia, they had tests for that. and you had to write two pages for homework in straight lines. wow...

and that's all the people in the workshop. yep. guess which one's me.

my favs

i like certain jap music. I hav this friend who's crazy over Gackt. and i don't get it. I mean, ok some of his songs are nice, but isn't he a bit to old to get fawned over? Now my taste is like those of Orange Range! yep i love them. if you don't know what their music sounds like, think of naruto combat themes. even bleach. I know Orange Range composed songs for them too.
now that reminds me. Not many people know but did you know that the voice person of Rurouni Kenshin is actually a FEMALE opera singer? and she's very famous too. cool ain't it. when i found out, i was really surprised. cuz kenshin really sounded manly and all that but then there WERE times he had high pitched voice...
oh gosh. I can't WAIT for kingdom hearts III to come out. I think its coming out sometime soon. i hope so. but then, its gonna cost like over 100 bucks. ouch to my heart! but i've watched two trailers on it, and its like.... gasp! omgomgomg!!! i can't WAIT! to you ignorant people out there, plsplspls watch the trailers of kingdom heart I & II & III. you WON'T regret!!!
sigh... how annoying. you see, i live on the fifth level with a tree growing right beside the balcony windows. so it's flowers are blooming now. thus, meaning that bees and insects will be invading my privacy. so now, my room is like infested with mosquitoes and im getting bitten. i mean i know im sweet and all that, but do you mosquitoes have to go to that extent of worshipping me?
SIGH EVEN MORE... i realized too late that today was actually the last day i'll ever see vivian for the summer... pooey...

everything will be alrite

ha ha! we fought the impossible today! we got vivian up and off the bus, even up and down the escalator! haha. guess who taught her that? ME of course. ha ha. i demonstrated to her how she could hop on and off the escalator. ha ha!

then we met this annoying security guard. he kept on watching us and telling us to get out of the way. how prejudiced! just because vivian was on the crutches!

ha ha! we were supposed to do interviews today in orchard rd. vivian was with me and marissa. we approached strangers and they always avoided us. finally, we met two who gave us donations! haha! no wonder all avoided us! they thought we were asking for donations cuz vivian was on her crutches! HAHAHA!

SO FUNNY! we bought ice cream. then we weren't sure if we could enter the building with our ice-cream. so marissa went inside to ask a saleswoman. she said that we should be allowed to. the moment she said that, a piece of marissa's ice-cream dropped on the spotlessly clean floor! HAHAHA! then right after that, her spoon dropped!HAHAHHAHAHA!!! Then that annoying security guard came. and then he was like gesturing aghastly at the floor! haha. he looked so pathetic!

oh. cuz vivian was on the crutches, everyone kept staring at her! ha ha. then i was like oh cool, we're the center of attention! ha ha.

oh. then it was so cool. cuz some of the ppl we met couldn't speak english. so vivian came in handy to speak chinese! then, there were two who spoke indonesian. ha ha! then, since we were with olivia and ita, we asked them to interview them! ha ha. it's like within our group we have three translators. english, chinese and indonesian!

haha. im slacking now. im supposed to do bio project right? haha. and there i was pestering Jovel to do her own bio project. haha. but i SO envy her! she's watching POC 3 today! omgomgomg! and she alr booked the tickets! grrrrr....

things are starting to come full circle now...

i just wish i get back my old life.

I miss gym!!!

two days without gym and im sorely missing it. omg. im getting all flabby. where're my muscles? where're my alertnesses? where're my happinesses?

haha. wan jiao lian's really cute. he cuts people's hair! ha ha. then aly and i was like asking mr. lim why he doesn't let him cut his hair. mr. lim says he refuses to let him cut cuz its so ugly! haha. its like their great friends but they talk bad about each other!! ha ha!

i took the taxi to newton mrt again today. vivian's guardian couldn't fetch her again so i helped her hail a cab and then hitched a ride to the mrt. oh! she learned to go up and down stairs today!!! yay! h aha! it was really freaking scary cuz now and then she would stumble over her crutches and then i would freak out cuz i thought she was gonna fall. she didn't use the wheelchair at all today!

and then, we're goin to orchard rd tomorrow. hmm. I wonder how we're gonna get Vivian there... she'll have to take the bus with her crutches...

omg! i really miss slow and aly!!! i really hope they have a safe journey... and and and a fun time without me...

my back is like aching from yesterday... sigh. and then now i realize that when i sit cross-legged, i wouldn't be able to stand with my legs straight afterwards. stupid knees...

ha ha. i was nearly dozing off in geog lecture on monday. charlotte and jovel saw me and said i looked like i was meditating. haha!

oops. im supposed to be doing the bio project. haha. better go off now shouldn't i... cya people. and and i hope my friends who have flown away will fly back soon! ha ha!!!

I dare you

Create your own Friend Test here

It's the hols! but i still hav school..

yep. Instead of going for the NZ trip, I'm stayin here in singapore. Yup. To attend sports PSYCHOLOGY. HAHA. and then slow was like telling me that I should go for MENTAL psychology. ha ha. oh yeah. open house. now THAT is great to gossip about.
1) I did car wash rite? ha ha. we earned like 100 bucks. although we expected to earn 350 bucks. but, our profit was still average so its ok. oh. I shall describe the cars i washed. Most of them had just been recently cleaned, so we didn't really have much work to do. but OMG! there was this one wacko of a car, its like... indescribable... there were dirt and mud on the underside of the car... scratches everywhere... and the once-silver wheel rims were a solid brown color!!! so, i was the only one of the group to ever have any major experience with washing cars. guess who got the dirty job of squatting and scrubbing at the worst part of the car? ME. yes. ME. i had to wash those brown wheel rims. NASTY. IT WAS PLAIN NASTY. oh. and under the hot sweating sun. and did i forget to tell you? we ran out of water halfway. so guess what i did. I washed the freaking wheels with dirty water. haha. made no difference anyway. the wheels were way beyond dirty. besides, we spent over an hour on it. so don't blame me. we really tried out best. its just that the car was beyond cleaning. haha. oh yeah, since i was the one who kept washing the wheels, my fingernails were solid black. really. they were just despicable. anyway, i scrubbed and scrubbed and some dirt just REFUSE to get off. so annoying.
2) Opposite the gym, was the dunking machine. ha ha. I just loved it. So, whenever a teacher got dunk, we ran out to see. Even mr. lim was interested! haha. Then, we wanted to dunk mr. lim. he said no. but we could tell that he REALLY wanted to go. cuz he kept looking at the people being dunked and was laughing at them. in the end, we dunked him! ha ha! and after that, he even paid 80 BUCKS to dunk our vice principal. HAHA!!! I swear, mr lim is so CHILDISH sometimes. I just can't tell why the boys don't like him. OH HA HA! Slow said right to his face when he refused to be dunk was that he was scared his BRIGHT RED UNDERWEAR WOULD SHOW THROUGH HIS WHITE CLOTHES!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! but in the end, nothing was seen. so keep cool perverts.
3) I spent money that day! All the money wasted... sigh. but at least i shared my food with aly! and attempted to share with slow. but she just refused. how cruel-hearted... :(
4) OMG! i just realized that on open house, i had to carry the freaking bucket i brought for the car wash home! if u remember, mom fetches me to school every morn, but i go home myself. anyway, i was like shit! i forgot about it! i attempted to contact my dad. he didn't answer. then my mom, no response, and then my house phone, it was ignored too. so i gave up. luckily, it was still one hour to rush hour. so it was tolerable. on the bus, i felt really retarded. then omg guess what. an auntie took pity on me! she told me to put the bucket down by her feet. i mean, yeah she's really nice and all but how embarrassing!!! then in the MRT, everyone was like STARING at me! (ok that's an exaggeration) but still! and worse, when i approached the barrier, i was like shit again! can i fit through? but in the end, i could. but i swear, it was a tight fit. then i was like thinking, will the security guards get me? they might think im carrrying a bomb or something. then, when i arrived in YCK staion, i thought again shit! i have to take the shuttle bus! you see, the shuttle bus i take is kinda small. so i thought i couldn't fit inside it with the bucket. so i tried one last time to call mom. she finally answered. and i had to wait for her to come fetch me. then she was like saying: how come u never call me?
5) All in all, it was a rather eventful day i guess... oh yah. carmen was so retarded. her group sold ice cream. so she came up to me ringing a bell. then she was like saying: Jie Qi! you look so deprived! Deprived of ice-cream! you're in real need of ice-cream. come, I give you some. h aha!

ok. yup. its quite a lot. and i still have to finish this bio project by fri of which i havn't started on yet. I was supposed to do with three other people. but since slow and I didn't realize we HAD a project, we only got three people cuz we got trang at the last minute. and then, i have to do the project MYSELF cuz they hav to go overseas for their enrichment programs. sigh. so unfair.but anyway, i trust myself to do the job better than them. so there! ha ha!

oh yeah. my tests' scores sux. i realize, from my experiment, that when i DO have the attitude, i simply create more careless mistakes. dunno why. hmm. really interesting. ok here goes:
E Math= 26/30. all from careless mistakes... could have gotten full marks. sad really.
A Math=27/30. all from careless mistakes... could have gotten full marks. sad indeed.
Chem=30/39. good really. cuz i didn't hav the attitude, and i didn't study. haha. at least i got the A1. but actually now that i think of it, this is BAD. my other chem scores were higher.
Geog=16/25. well, good too. cuz i didn't study, and i still got higher than aly! ha ha! i mean, i only started on memorizing the topic an hour before during recess. and it is my average score. ha ha.
El descriptive essay=24/30. yay! highest i ever got for an essay. i think. i wrote about this sad story. h a ha. probably moved the teacher to tears so she gave me high marks! ha ha.

and that's it i guess. woah. one of my longest post recently. ok. have a great time overseas my darling friends. especially slow and aly! ha ha. i shall get to spend time with Denise, my rival in love. ha ha. and then. i think i would rather be with vivian then in NZ. HA HA. hmph. i shall keep an eye on Denise to make sure she doesn't steal anymore friends from me! ahah. don't worry Denise, i don't hate you! haha!

oh. had to carry all my books home today. omg. my back was breaking. then my arms were like shaking. and then my stomach hurt a lot cuz my files were pressed against it. sigh. oh. i hailed a cab and it dropped me off at newton mrt. ha ha. cuz Vivian had to take the cab home. so yeah. i like that cab driver. he really reminded me of my uncle. he was like saying in chinese, close the door. i want the air-con. h aha. and he was really friendly. so yeah. ha ha.

THE END!

yoohoo

Very busy today. So, I'm gonna talk about open house next time. Oh, and about... darn it. I forgot again! Hmm...

sniff....

omg. my eyes are like tearing now. Just read the book "for one more day." i must say, this is the most touching book i have ever read in my entire life. its by Mitch Albom.
in fact, this is the ONLY book that ever made me close to crying.
i don't cry over books or movies. dunno why.
and now, ive got no mood to do those pamphlets. im supposed to write: I am the proud owner of this clean car. Thanks to Wiki Waki Washi!
lame. but we're desperate.
sob sob...

just sad

today, i missed the bus. actually, i could have caught up to it. but then, i was too lazy to run. besides, i was dead tired from gym. anyway, so i decided not to wait for the next one.
i decided to walk home. here are the reasons:
1) even though i was "dead tired" i felt too lazy to wait for the next bus.
2) i felt saving-moneyish. cuz this few days, i've been spending a lot like TREATING ALY ICE CREAM.
3) i wanted to lose those extra fats.
anyway, i kept track of time and distance. Turns out, even though I have walked this route before like a thousand times (ok four times) i didn't even realize how far i had to walk or how long. my watch spoilt since two days ago even though i still wear it. too lazy to take it off. actually, im too used to putting it on in the mornings. i guess im really attached to my watch. anyway, so i used my phone to keep track.
i walked past a grand total of FIVE traffic junctions. and had to cross the road a grand total of FOUR times. sigh. my legs are like rubber now. AND it took me 25 mins.
and the saddest thing of all was: my bus passed me like FOUR times while i was walking. meaning if i had just waited for three mins. i would have gotten home in just 5 mins. sad really... but nvm. at least, i can be sure that im tryin to keep myself fit.
hmmm... yay this sat we have open house! my group's doing carwash!!!! ha ha. it's gonna be so fun. i can't wait!!! then i was like saying we can all wear bikinis. then slow was like yah lar you go wear loh. we watch. ha ha! then i was like but then we're gonna be wearing the gym clothes and sweating. won't we dirty the car? then slow was like nvm lah. we can clean ourselves on the car while washing it. omg lah ha ha!!! so today and yesterday, we were giving out fliers. very awkward and wu liao! its so weird! approaching ppl... well. we did it! quite a good experience really. ha ha. then me and slow, we CORNERED mr. lim after training! to let us wash his car. he asked what price. i say 7 dollars. then he say walao so expensive ah. outside 3 dollars leh. then slow went but its for charity. then he was like laughing. then i went ok 6 dollars. then he was like no. 5 dollars. then i say 5.30. ha ha! we were like bargaining for the price lah. but then, in the end. we dunno whether he agreed or not. ha ha.
oh yah! today i forgot my leotard. then i was mopping around the whole school asking for extra shirts. aly didn't even offer. slow would NEVER lend me hers. then the others don't have. so i was whinning after school saying how i didn't want to go topless. then slow was like saying ha ha you'll have to dance around topless. then yen hua and wei yee pass by. they heard and they were like whoooo! i can't wait to see. omg evil ppl. PERVERTS!!! anyway, in the end. ALY LENT ME HERS! yippeee. as you can see, she secretly loves me after all!
and thus, aly and I live happily ever after and were not affected any further by disturbing rumours and criticisms.
THE END! ;D

dang

i alr typed a post halfway. when my comp had to choose the time to crash.
so
im not gonna type again.
ha ha. have a great night everyone!

BANG! BANG! FIRE FIRE!!!

darn it.
so i said i would get top in class.
well. i could have.
except
i made a careless mistake.
that cost me max. 3 marks.
which would just drag me all the way down to top 5.
hopefully.
or else
i would be just average again.

anyway. so that's my experiment.
question: does attitude really count?
ans: i dunno yet. wait til i get back my results. but i did the experiment before this. and my marks really did raise. but I have to check twice before i can prove my hypothesis.

you know what?
im going to study during the june holidays.
what's wrong bout that you ask?
ive never done it before. not even for my finals.
wanna know why?
im sick of being average. i want to be top again. i think. but i don't wanna get really disappointed. sigh...

so... question is... should i go for it???

welcome to my life

1) Recently, I started whistling. Especially in class. Slow can tell you all about it. Anyway, I was out yesterday. Then I went into the habit of whistling in a store. Then, a saleswoman came and grumpily asked me what I wanted.
2) I can't believe I'm actually practising maths questions for the test tomorrow. I NEVER practice for maths test. Maybe cuz I'm really desperate right now. This time, I want to get the highest score in class. Ok, I just typed that. Let's see whether I can really get what I want.
3) HAHAHA!!! Slow now RELUCTANTLY accepts that I can ACTUALLY SING!!! Yayness. As you can see, the JUST and RIGHTLY always WINS.
4) HA! My file tried to cut me again today. But I RESISTED! Knowing what it was attempting to do, my fingers hardened against the potentially harmful stapler bullets sticking out of the file. HA! After all file, I created you. I kept you. I care for you. So you really shouldn't treat me that way. It's not advisable. Cuz who knows, you might end up in a rubbish dump somewhere one day.
5) AN ACHEIVEMENT!!! I've finally gotten into the habit of drawing with a marker straight off instead of drawing in pencil first! YAHOO! It's good for me. It's good for art. It's good for my O' Levels!!! YIPEE!

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

tidbits

1) I forgot it was PTD tomorrow. If it hadn't been for Slow, I will have been dead by Monday. Wait, was that grammtically right? And then, I had to have to meet the teacher that I didn't prefer.
2) We finally got a new coach for gym. Did I say the word "finally"? WEll I'll say it again. FINALLY.
3) Now what did I not like about the new coach? I mean she's nice and everything but she wants us to start from the BASICS again. Ok, I know all of us don't have a good and solid foundation, especially me. But ITS NOT OUR FAULT OK??? Who ask you to leave us alone! Fine, we learn ourselves. Then now you come back and say we start everything AGAIN? WHAT IS THIS!!!??? So, we learned straight jumps, tuck jumps, face drops and back drops today... wow brilliant... Did I say that we didn't do our routine at all? No I didn't. Well, I'll say it again. WE DIDN'T DO OUR ROUTINE AT ALL!!! Now, tell me. Why is it that this year we didn't win a freaking thing in the competition? It's cuz we didn't have enough TIME to learn it. Now then, if we start doing the basics again, do you think we can make it in TIME again for next year's competition?
I
DON'T
THINK
SO
4) I CUT MY FINGER!!! BOOHOOO!!! I mean, i have like BEAUTIFUL fingers ok!!!??? What'll I do if they get scars??? SCREAMS!!! Now, how did I cut it? Well, I was walking behind Denise and Aly (as usual). I was carrying my files. You know, how my file is like torn and worn and all that? And then how I try to patch it up by stapling it like 20 times? So, I was carrying it. Then, it CUT me! Can you believe it??? And it wasn't just some minor cut! It was a MEDIUM cut!!! And then I was showing it to Aly and Denise! Aly you saw it rite? wasn't it deep? omg. how am i gonna deal with this? arrrgghhh. My piano playing life, my stable life. ALL GONE....
5) I thought the bus was gonna leave without me. I was walking with Denise and Aly to the bus stop. They were going to Aly's house. HMPH! Wonder what they're up to... so secretive... Anyway, the bus came. So I had to run to catch up. Then only the back doors open cuz no one wanted to board. Then I had to run up to knock on the door. Then I heard laughter. Door opened and I went inside. I found out later that Aly and Denise were actually laughing at me! HMPH! She said it was cuz I looked cute. yeah rite. i bet it's more than that!
6) Yusnellie came and asked me to be emcee for teacher's day. along with Huda. I wasn't sure about it. So I asked her to get 20 people min to sign a petition then I become emcee. omg. and then she really did go around asking people. thanks Yusnellie! cuz I don't have confidence. and I think I won't be a good emcee and people don't want me to become one. but then, by end of day, she got 21 people. sigh. but im really not too sure about this... well, look on the bright side! at least i get points!!!

speechless

I'VVE GOT NOTHING TO SAY. seriously... well, at least they laughed...

FUNNY

Today, Georgina and I were pushing Vivian down on the wheelchair. We had to go by the elevator ha ha. So i was pushing her while Georgina was carrying our bags. ha ah. so we got on the lift to go to the ground level. ha ha. then when we reached the ground floor, i tried to push her out.

but the wheelchair couldn't move!!! HAHA!!! I dunno why. but no matter how hard i pushed, it wouldn't move. so i tried to jerk it real hard. it only budged a few cm. in the end, vivian on the wheelchair was like stuck half out of the elevator. ha ha. so if the elevator's doors had closed, she would have been crushed ha ha. but georgina was the one pressing the button to hold the doors open. she was like screaming and laughing. we were all laughing. i was laughing so hard i couldn't push the wheelchair. luckily no one was waiting to use the elevator. haha!!! so we were stucked there for like 2 mins.

then finally, i didn't care if i broke the wheelchair or not, so i just half carried, half skidded it out haha!!! later on, i found out that it was because the wheels had jammed against the foot pedals. haha. poor wheelchair. i betcha all battered now haha.

i love this song. the lyrics rock too

半兽人-周杰伦

再也没有纯白的灵魂 自人类堕落为半兽人

我开始使用第一人称 记录眼前所有的发生

嗜血森林醒来的早晨 任何侵略都成为可能

我用古老的咒语重温 吟唱灵魂序曲寻根

面阅绲男拔?不被污染的转身

维持纯白的象徵 然后还原为人

# 让我们 半兽人 的灵魂 翻滚

(收起残忍 回忆兽化的过程)

让我们 半兽人 的眼神 单纯

(而非贪婪着永恆 只对暴力忠诚)

让我们 半兽人 的灵魂 翻滚

(停止忿恨 永无止尽的战争)

让我们 半兽人 的灵魂 单纯

(对远古存在的神 用谦卑的身份)

* 泪沸腾 风异常的冰冷

马蹄声 让人睡不安稳

我在等 灵魂序曲完成

带领族人写下祈祷文(哼哼哼哈兮)

那城镇 无谓的在牺牲

战火焚 祭坛开始下沈

我在等 觉悟后的族人

往南方大地重新开垦

ok

today was nice. had a family eat out for lunch and dinner. forgot the keys so we bullied my oldest bro to going downstairs again to get the key from the car. supposed to mug today. but have been taking it all too easy. no motivation to study i guess. haaa. and im not anxious nor nervous... yet. wait til tomorrow. see what happens.

randoms

i've watched loads of dramas and anime and read manga. really nice stuffs.

but

i realize that nowadays, jap anime is getting more and more uh retarded? like how do they come out with these kinds of shows??? i mean yeah they're so damn funny but they're really lame and sick. im not gonna describe. readers, you go watch yourselves. Princess princess D and the manga version of hana kimi.

more...

my FAV

i just LOVE this scene...

books

finished three thick books borrowed from last week. yeah i know. i shouldn't read them cuz i've got tests and exams. but not my fault k! it's not my fault if books draw me toward them...

in addition...

sigh. can i get any more blur, you ask? answer is... YES! lol. here's what happened after the mishap with the poor guard. (was he a guard anyway? i think he might have been my neighbour...)

i was walking up to my condo after the guard house. probably the poor confused person was looking after me... im sorry! and then some guy caught up to me. hmm. i thought: in a hurry huh... but then, he started WALKING beside me. then he went: hi. that was when i stopped looking in front of me. i shifted my stiffened head to glance at him. hmm. he looked REALLY familar- i thought. then we started talking. i didn't even know his name. but he doesn't even know my name too! he only knows me by mei mei. that's what everyone calls me. my relatives don't even know my name too! only my family knows. anyway, i was like: could you be aunty margaret's (thats my neighbor) son? then he was like: what??? then i was like: ok nvm. ehehe...

so... it turned out, he was my across-the-corridor-neighbor. of which we're very close to. sigh. then mom found out again, she was like shaking her head and laughing.

now that i think of it. incidents like this hav happened b4.

for example, u noe how im self-conscious in public right? so that means, in order to get out of there fast, i walk fast. very fast. so... on another day, i was walking fast back to my condo. then i heard someone behind me. then i thought: hmm. i could be blocking her way. so i walked EVEN faster. then that person walked faster. that person was like running to keep up with me. i was like: whaaatt... so i slowed down. she caught up. then said hi. ure khai's sis right? i was like: uh hi. do i know you? then she was shocked. in the end, she was my bro's sis, and the sis of the girl that sits with me in the car every morn on the way to school.

another example, on another day long time ago... walking pass the guard house as usual. then a man on a bicycle was there. he said hi mei. come over. then i was like what... so i came over. he looked vaguely familar... i couldn't think where i knew him from. then we talked. mom found out AGAIN. then she was like, he's a neighbour. i was like he is? oh interesting...

ANOTHER example, i met someone from CJC during the tramp comp. this time, she DIDN'T look familar. she said hi. then i was like: hi do i know you? then she was exasperated with me. and said: i sit with you in the car every morning... of course you know what happened next, mom found out. called me a blur queen and shook her head at me...

am i that blur? i mean, i can be pretty sharp at times. but seriously...

HELP

OMG. you CANNOT believe this... (screams)

you see, i HATE going on public transport. in fact, i hate going in public. i get really self-conscious. so i usually keep my head looking straight. i don't look left or right. and even if there was an explosion going off right next to my ear, i wouldn't even glance at it. coughs, meaning i don't know what's happening around me.

here's what happened: i live in a condo. so there's a guard house with a guard or two, right? anyway, was coming home today round 7.15, straight after training. uh... how do i explain this... hmm. ok the barrier in front of me came up. like for cars to pass thru? anyway, i dunno why, but i didn't seek to understand why it came up. i was like: oh the barrier goes up... that's when i heard a car behind me. oops. then, at the same time, a guard went: mei mei why your mom never fetch you home today? i heard, but it somehow didn't go into my head. but i heard and KNEW a car was behind me. so i stopped to turn around to wait for the car. then, when i turned around, i was facing the guard house. i saw the guard who was the one speaking. i repeat: i SAW. but it didn't go into my head. then when the car passed, i turned to walk on. then i heard the guard again: huh? i repeat: i HEARD. but i didn't listen. sigh. omg im SO SORRY GUARD MAN. I DIDN'T MEAN TO BE MEAN OR OFFEND YOU!!! it was only afterwards when i was going up the lift when the sounds and sights finally came into my brain and i understood... omgomg!!! IM SORRY SORRY SORRY. OMGOMGOMG. AAARRRGGGHHH!!! IM NOT MEAN IM JUST BLUR. SOBSOBSOB!!! mom heard what happened from me, then she was like: ure in ure own world. blur queen... then she started laughin at me... sob sob... ...

wonderings of a stranger...

hmm... i was wrong. i didn't study for 7 hours yesterday. I studied for 10 hours. yes. I've gone blind. and Im terribly tired.

I just watched mr. and mrs smith! the show rocks man!!! nice! but i think pride and prejudice is just as nice. and of course, i watched it aloneeee.... but i like it that way. so who cares.

i realize, my typing has really accelerated today. i type much faster than normal. know why? cuz of yesterday's 10 hours practice. yes, 10 hours of typing on your keyboard really does make a difference.

and, to add to my misery, my 10 hours yesterday was ALL FOR NOTHING. sad really. nothing i studied came out. in the end, i really shouldn't have studied. Cause, i already knew the answer. so yeah... sad really. all my hard work wasted. oh the prejudice and biased perspectives of the world!!!

remarkable really. i read a book last night. a day before my exam! seriously, books harm you. you should not go near them! i have learnt my lesson.... NOT! BOHAHAHA!!!

a reflection

i figure im a hard-working person, by nature. you see, when it comes down to studying, i can just study for hours non-stop until im done or i'm forced to give up. like dinner or sleep. im pretty stubborn. Thing is, why do i never study then? Easy, i've no motivation. I dont' feel any need to study until the day before the test. I mean, why bother study if you'll forget them all over the next few days?

Im not smart. It's just that I study smart. I know what to study and when I do study, I will not and cannot get distracted. I don't even stone off or fall asleep. Really, I've never done that before. Moreover, I don't really need to study as much as other people, cuz I actually LISTEN in class. really, you should try it. It really helps. Of course i do stone off in lessons sometimes, but that's when I'm sure I understand everything that the teacher is teaching at the moment.

i've just been through six hours straight of hell. well not really. i liked it in a way. you see, when i'm not studying, i think i hate studying. but when i AM studying, i love studying. dunno why. perhaps i really am a nerd by nature? i mean i love books. (fiction) and then i got influenced by my friends to hate studyin or something. but then, i don't recall ever studying as hard as all of them in my entire life. in fact, i NEVER studied in primary/elementary school, except in pr.6 when it was my PSLE year. i don't recall. yeah... in fact, i don't remember practising for maths or compos or science... how strange...

hmm... ive been contradicting myself in this post. must be an after-effect of staring at the comp screen for hours. my eyes hurt. my butt hurts. and im hungry. full stop.

still planning on reading a book tonight! :D

sleep...

my eyes are killing me. i can't stare at the comp screen for even two hours. im gonna go blind today i bet. but... desperate meausures call for desperate actions... or whtever. so... for the first time in my life, im using the comp to study. cool right? usually i write out my notes. but i figured this time, my hands would hurt like hell. so im typing instead. but then, im not even sure the printer is working. but who cares.

back to work... and i've only been at it for two hours. six more hours to go. jia you!

ps. im not worryin at the hours more i still have to go but worryin whether i can finish in time. sigh. im so dead.

east coast project

Yep. I went to East Coast for some Geog project. Long time ago. But I love the view. Yes i know, Im such a good photographer. Someone should pay me for this pic.

Universal Studios

I just watched Pride and Prejudice. alone. I was like siting on the floor eating noodles and drinking milk. I know. Quite sad really. But the show was nice. Bad ending though. How did they get over the obstacle of that formidable aunt? Did they get married in the end? hmmm. I supposed the movie ended like that to deliberately make you wonder.

anyway, today's gonna be boring. Right now, im sitting here with a book. attempting to wrench myself away from it again and do my studies. sigh... i hate books. they get you in trouble and could possibly ruin your life.